Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Memories and Tears...

I want to thank everyone for their comments and warm wishes on the last blog. They meant the world to me. I haven't been home much. I've been either at the nursing home, or a hotel in town, or with my family. I can't blog or read blogs on my current phone, but I can check email. I got your comments in email when I had a chance and they made me smile.

We had a good day Saturday. My parents were able to get some rest, Hildi and her family were here. We grilled and I made homemade potato salad and mac & cheese. Lu & Luke dyed Easter eggs with Hildi's girls and helped them make Easter bags. When they were in bed, we all sat around talking, raiding the Easter candy, filling their loot bags and hiding the eggs. Easter morning was fun. Then we had a lovely brunch. Lu, Luke & Sean kept the girls so the rest of us could go to the nursing home. My grandmother was much worse. They were having to give morphine every two hours so she was never really awake. Hildi & her husband drove 4 hours round trip to see to my parents cats and gather more things. My cousin and I spent hours holding grandma's hands and talking about memories. I got some private time to tell my grandmother how much I'd miss her and how much she's meant to me. But that if she needed to go, she should go. That when the light called to her, to follow it home. She didn't need to suffer anymore. I'll never know if she heard me, but I hope she did. Lu, Luke & Sean brought Hildi's girls in to the hotel. I told them to say their goodbyes, because I didn't think she'd make it through the night. Sean and I stayed at a hotel in town that night. My grandmother passed at 3 am. My parents were with her.

Monday, my father, Hildi & I packed up my gran's belongings from the home. We all accompanied my mother to the funeral home to help the family settle arrangements. We went with my parents to order flowers and then we took them to the hotel. Hildi's hubby had taken the girls back to my house that morning and we joined them around supper time. Today has been the first day I've rested. The next two days, visitation and funeral, will be hard. Hopefully on Friday, I'll feel like posting. Thank you for keeping my family and I in your thoughts and prayers. It means alot to me.


RIP Helen Schaefer Graham
January 10, 1923- April 5, 2010


  1. You and your Family are still in our prayers Spot, get yourself some rest when you can and fill us in when it all settles back down.

    Your Grandmother is smiling because she knows that you love her and I think she did hear you when you were talking to her, it is a blessing to get a chance to say goodbye I am happy you were blessed with that chance.

  2. I'm sure she did hear you. It's so hard to lose those we love. I am sorry. Prayers, hugs, and love to you and your family, Spot.

  3. How precious to have all her family there and her loved ones embracing her. Bittersweet, and heart wrenching. There is nothing like family. Nothing. I know you will always celebrate her time on earth and honor her through all your life.
    Hugs, prayers, and much, much comfort to your family in this time of loss. I am so sorry.

  4. You're in my thoughts, Spot. :(

  5. It is so sad to have lost, but so good to have had.


  6. I'm so glad you got to say good bye Spot...and I'm sure your Grandmother heard you.Love and hugs to you and your family.

  7. Oh Spot - it's just never anything but awful to say goodbye to those we love. I am deeply sorry for your family's loss.

    You are in my heart and thoughts ... even though I have not been in my blog in some time.

    Be sure to take care of you, too - K?

  8. Love you always!

  9. I know this phrase is overused--but your grandma really is in a better place. She has no pain now.

    Still praying for you and yours, Spot, like always. Belated Happy Easter!

  10. Take your time, muffin. We'll be here when you get back. Smooches.

  11. Spot, I am truly sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts.

  12. Sending huge hugs your way, Spot!

  13. Aw, honey. This was a beautiful, sad, heartfelt tribute to your wonderful grandmother.

    I also agree that she definitely heard you...or at minimum could feel/sense your presence and your love...

    I'm glad that everyone got a chance to see her. Take care of yourself, sweetie.

  14. I'm just catching up and am so sorry to read about the past week you've been having. Sorry your grandma died, but if she was taking morphine it was probably a blessing.

    I hope all home and auto repairs are made. I hope the knee gets better and I hope you get some rest.

    My thoughts are with you.

  15. She knows now exactly how you all feel. Love is all that matters.